Everyone I know goes away

I don't write personal posts in my blog because to a certain extent I feel its a bit narcissistic to think that everyone really gives two shits what random thoughts I've had throughout the day. But fuck all that for now, because this is what I am. This is how I feel. And even though it sucks, I can't blame anyone but myself. And even if I could do it all differently, I wouldn't.



I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way